The Lighthouse

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I am still alive.

I am still single.

I am happy.

Hopefully I’ll be happier when I’m in a relationship.

I am going to see my dad sometime in the near future.

I am finding a job.

I am looking for a college to go in the mean and in-between with my SCAD troubles.

Well, I’m realizing that I should I should only want things that I’ll know what to do with once I get them. Trying to look at things in the big picture rather than momentary pleasures. How to get what I need to be happy now as well as later.

Focusing right now on getting a job, getting into a college, and learning a new language.

Learning Japanese because I plan on being an animator and let’s face facts the USA is getting it’s US-ass kicked by Nippon right now so...

I’m trying to start some new routines.

Draw a for an hour a day.
Exercise three times a week.
Drink 7 glasses of water a day.
Cut out most of my carb intake.
Keep a tight reign over my money situation.
Do a lesson of Japanese every other day.
Commit to do something and stick to it.

My life is mine.
I will be everything that I every wanted to be.
I'm worthy of it all as long as live on.
This is the beginning of the best days of my life.
Love, healthiness, happiness, opportunity, awesomeness, and freedom are all in my grasp.
My positive thoughts are stronger than anything.
My negative thoughts are weak.
I am attracting all the things that will make my life great.

This is probably the hardest I've ever had to work.

I really should not be taking this break, just as long as the time seems far away I guess it's ok.

No sleep till Sunday kids.

See Ya soon.

Intro

In the realm of animation, the name this man’s name is recognized immediately among any as the great pioneer of the art form. In his life he created many firsts, masterpieces, and great artistic ventures in his time as a producer, director, actor and animator.(Wikimedia Foundation.) In all of 65 years of life, Walt Disney has built a name and a company that households around the world know.
Beginnings
On December 5, 1901 Flora and Elias Disney welcomed a baby boy into the world and named him Walter Elias in the city of Chicago, Illinois.
At five years old, Walt and his family made the move to Marceline, Missouri, where his uncle owned property. His father bought a house and 43 acres of farmland. There he had discovered his love of drawing. Often he could be found doodling, drawing pictures of the assortment of animals even talking his sister into painting the Barn with Tar. A retiree named “Doc” Sherwood, gave him money to draw a picture of his horse named Rupert. He also developed his love for trains in Marceline, from constantly watching the Atchison, Topeka and Santa Fe Railways that traveled through the town. (A., Brad)
Four years later the Disneys departed to Kansas City in 1910. While attending grammar school , Walt met Walter Pfeiffer. The Pfeiffer family were theater aficionados and helped the young Disney build an understanding of vaude ville and movies. He followed the works of greats such a Charlie Chaplin.
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"Walt Disney." Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia. 7 Mar 2007, 08:11 UTC. Wikimedia Foundation, Inc. 7 Mar 2007 <http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=walt_disney&oldid=>. http://www.justdisney.com/walt_disney/biography/long_bio.htm

Well school has been sucking with my work schedule so... I quit my job ^_^

Reason I quit my job...

-I was behind in all of my classes.
-My grades have sucked.
-There seems to be too much drama for my liking.
-I'm totally disconnected from my social circle.(Four friends have now become two couples and with one I feel a Brandy/Corey thing going on which for future referrence is not a good thing. So let the awkwardness begin.)
-I'm missing out on all the fun of being in college
-There is this girl I'm into and she's into me to it's just I want to avoid that whole thing about co-workers dating.


Good reasons I think.

I guess god still has some things to see with my old situation. This girl that goes to my school likes me, I mean really, really likes me and I am not feeling her, I mean at all. she tries to hug me and stuff and I just wanna to leave me alone. Now I have to let her down easy. Damn, when shit happens full circle it really happens full circle.

Sophia, she may not be the top in physical appearance but the but the beauty of that mind and what I see when look at her is more than what I need to try and start something with her. She has this thing for AFI which is sort of weird considering they are a few wardrobe malfunctions away from being cross dressers. I mess with her about that a lot. We flirt a lot, and we always have lots to talk about. Finally someone actually feels the same way.

Wooooooooow.

Mid terms next week. Shatload of work to do. So peace.

New Year’s Resolutions


-Get down to 155 lbs and do so by being healthy not by any crash diets
-Get organized and use time more wisely
-Spend more wisely
-Get things done more quickly
-Stop procrastinating
-Do my best
-Listen more than I talk, and when I talk let it mean something
-Work smarter and harder
-Don’t get frustrated get done
-Follow directions
-Focus on one thing at a time
-Take baby steps to tackle big problems
-And be cleaner
-Be the boss of my life

Looks like a pretty good list, to me. So I hope to make it happen this year for me. My thoughts will become action and I can take me to a whole other level.

Happy 2007 folks.


Oh god in heaven help me with the deepness of shit I have gotten myself into.

I have just seen my Syllabuses for this year for design and it looks I am going to every class with nose in books and hand in air. Not to mention a hole in my pocket.

This is gonna be tough and I'm not even gonna act like this is gonna be fun.

Well, I have the talent, and this is what I desire so i guess i have to find my way out of this fine mess.

All I can do is make it work.

OK yeah I have finally come to the realization that I was (and still am more than a little bit) obsessed with certain parties.

Not attracted, not interested, not crushing, obsessed.


So now I have to get over it, comments please.

Rev. Lowery once told me that the trouble with looking back to a darker place in your life is not the fact that you are looking that it’s you long to return there.

The time before I found out what true affections, admiration, and attraction was, was a great but self destructive time in my life. But it was if anything serene. I had friends, hobbies, and a good outlook; for a dithering idiot. I laughed at people in love and lived vicariously through other people, instead of gaining my own experience, instead of feeling my own pain. I was such an insolent little wretch, picking other apart while my own life and outlook on said life was in shambles. Everyday it is my fear that I am the same, and in that fear this part of me is staved off most of the time.

In new light I see the error of my ways, and I am the only thing wrong with my life. I am my own worst enemy and only I can take the steps to make me a better person. I have to make the choices I have to make the breakthroughs and see my own faults and follies and repair me. There will be always room for self improvement and self advancement.

It may be a slow process but I will go the distance to make my life the best it can possibly be. I won’t complain or condemn, I will only push on with my head to the sky. I won’t have to tell people how much of anything I am because my true nature will shine. I can do anything all I have to do is make the effort and give it my best.


Okay done with my rant.

On deck for this week:

- Listen more actively.
- Getting paid on Friday.
- Get a few chapters of my Spanish book done, and prolly hit a few Japanese lessons.
- Practice, Practice, Practice.
- Eat better.
-No work Friday or Saturday.
- Call SCAD and figure out how I am going to pay for school.
-Buy Wielding a Red Sword.
-Put 120 in the Savings

In love with the idea and not with the person is a problem I have. I really have no base for my knowledge and affections about her, except for a few traded glances, some journal entries that are just her own perception on a situation, some stuff she said out of panic, and the sound of her voice on the phone. Although those things speak volumes, they are not anything to base such strong feelings on. We’ve never really interacted on a level past small talk and before I said my stupidity. There is no way that I can say for sure how I feel until we are communicating about deeper subjects and connecting properly on those subjects.

Coming to this realization should stop me from saying or doing anything stupid, for a while least. I won’t be trying to woo her or any crap like that. I won’t be looking at her through rose colored glasses. I’ll be attempting to rebuild a friendship rather than build a romance.

This is a healthy change from the past year . I guess this growing stuff is harder than I thought.

Anyway…

Books, Books, Books

My passion in life is knowledge and the bridges that it builds. True understanding of a subject can not only help me but help me help others. Speaking other languages allows me to communicate with people I would otherwise not be able to have a dialogue with. Perfecting my crafts in my artistic pursuits allow me to give someone a clear idea of what I’m feeling or just express a wacky idea. Knowing world affairs gives me clarity on subjects that some would have me to believe are just in black and white. Knowing myself helps me to know my failings and maladies so that I can persevere to defeat all of them, and grow to be a better man one day at a time. Knowing God gives me the power to know that the answer with every problem with other people is love, and that I can do anything if he is in my corner.

Faith,

the substance for things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen.

I went to church today reluctantly. Funny how when I got there it seemed like the entire service was about my reluctance.

I really must thank Jasmine for making me go.

I almost cried... I now knew what was the answer that had been escaping me for so long...

My answer is love... I've been afraid of it for so long. I still am a little shy with it, but it is the strength that I've been praying for so long. Not just romance, not just fellowship, not just agope, but all of it...

My desire meant nothing while I denied myself feeling to give then strength. I have found the proper feeling. Overwhelming, overflowing, overpowering love is what I've missed.

I've learned what to ask for now and here and now I will remember this prayer:

Lord God almighty, Judge of the quick and the dead, give her wisdom, sight, strength, and transform her so that she can be ready for the greatness that is her destiny. Also, give me wisdom and to know and aid her in any test. Allow me be her sword, sheild, and guiding light. Use me lord as a healer and protecter. Send me a storm so great, so mighty, that I may be strong enough to face any test I might face in her service and in yours.Give me the wisdom to be worthy of you and her.
In jesus name I pray, Amen, Amen, Amen.